Per Caso 11- Need you.Love you

Ulquiorra felt a pain on one side of his head, but he didn't care. He didn't want to believe what has just happened.This can't be. He managed to catch Grimmjow before he fell , and now he held him,unable to do anything.''Are y-you  'k-kay,Ul-quiorra??'' coughed teal haired teen together with blood. Ulquiorra took courage to look at him. Grimmjow was mess. His chest was soaked in blood,his eyes blurry. Schiffer scowled and held his boyfriend closer.''And you ask me that?? Are you stupid?? Don't talk…'' he whispered desperately. Grimmjow smiled weakly. ''That's me,st-upid one.'' He spitted out blood. Ulquiorra didn't cry. There wasn't time for crying. The time Grimmjow had. He opened mouth to say something,but he found himself unable to speak, as he watched his dear one dying.No, I mustn't think like this. He's not going to die,he's definitely not going to die.''Even i-if you say i…t'll be a-alright, still…I..'' low voice was interrupted by Ulquiorra's.''It'll be alright. You'll be alright.'' He said calmly,although it was hard to keep his voice from shaking.Why am I doing this?? It's more than obvious that nothing is going to be alright. We both know. Who am I trying to assure?? Him…he looked at all the blood… or myself? ''You have to be.'' He added. Grimmjow coughed blood again.Ulquiorra tried to look around,but everything was destroyed.''Grimmjow!'' yelled Ichigo,who seemed okay enough.''Did someone call the ambulance??'' he asked.Someone replied positivetly,saying number of minutes in which it should arrive,but Ulquiorra didn't listen.To him it seemed that every second of waiting was an eternity. This can't be…am I dreaming??

Suddenly someone put hand on his shoulder. ''Boy,we need to get him out of here.'' Pale teen looked at his teacher,who seemed different than before. More reliable,more like a person to look up to,to follow. He nodded,and helped Urahara take him out. They lay him on the grass and Ulquiorra immediately kneeled beside him. Grimmjow heavily raised blurry eyes at his boyfriend.He opened dry lips and tried to say something,but his voice was too low to be heard. Schiffer noted that and bended down, closer.''L-let's ..see each…o..ot..'' Grimmjow stopped and gasped for air. This was when Ulquiorra saw more and more blood coming not only from deep wounds,but also from his lover's lips.His lungs are probably pierced through, judging from his breathing and the blood. In times like this Ulquiorra hated himself for being son of a doctor.Even if he wanted to believe Grimmjow will be alright, he couldn't, for he knew too well how serious those wounds were.Doctors can fix that, come on! They can heal him.But only thing in his head was low percentual number of people who survived having their lungs pierced. He slightly touched Grimmjow's cheeks, wiping out the blood from his mouth.''Shh,don't talk,just try to breath slowly. ''Stay with me. He could almost hear the ambulance now.

Suddenly he saw Grimmjow's hand lightly touching his own and weakly pushing it away.It hurt when he noticed that hand he remembered as warm and strong was now colder and weaker than his.''Let-let's..meet…e-each..o..ot..other ..n…next..life.'' said teal haired teen quietly. ''Grimmjow,you aren't going to die,so don't talk about next life here!'' Ulquiorra said flatly.I can't tell him how worried I actually am. Although he deserves to know, I can't.

The ambulance arrived. In total, three cars arrived. Doctors from one of them immediately went to see Grimmjow. One of them asked Ulquiorra to stay away.He did so,watching the doctors as they put Grimmjow carefully on the strechter and carried him in the car.Don't leave me.''Can I go with him??'' he asked without even realizing it.Doctor looked at him,and to Ulquiorra's surprise nodded. He got in the car and sat beside Grimmjow,grabbing his cold hand.''I'm with you,Grimmjow. '' he whispered. Not so blue eyes,more gray ones now,looked at him.''I'm ..g..glad..for ..that.'' he managed to say.''Sir,please,you shouldn't talk now.'' Said one of the doctors to him. ''Right, we can talk later.'' Said Ulquiorra .Grimmjow even smirked at that.''You do-don't ac..actu-ally be-li..eve it,..do..you…Ul-Ulqui??'' he asked. I don't. But I have to,for you. Thought pale teen,but actually only held Grimmjow's hand tighter. He tried to concentrate only on Grimmjow,trying not to hear what doctors were saying. But he couldn't not see that respiration machine and he couldn't not see how doctors scowled when they torn his shirt apart and saw injuries.''Am..I..s-so…mess-e-'' Grimmjow couldn't finish because Ulquiorra kissed him. He didn't care what the doctors were doing or what they were thinking.He kissed him because he needed to. He felt taste of Grimmjow's blood,but he didn't care. He broke the kiss and caressed his boyfriend's head, fingers running trough teal hair.''Wh-y..did..yo-u..d..do..th..at??'' asked Grimmjow between gasping.Because I couldn't miss our last kiss.But instead of that painful truth,he just said ''Because you obviously needed me.'' I needed you. I still do.Need you.Love you.

When they arrived to hospital,doctors immediately took Grimmjow on the operating room. Ulquiorra watched how his heart was taken away with him.''Grimmjow! I'll be waiting!'' he shouted,hoping he heard that.I miss you even now. He slowly entered the waiting room and sat,when nurse arrived.''Excuse me sir,do you know the young man that was just taken in??The one with teal hair.'' She asked. Ulquiorra looked at her and nodded.Nurse took out some file and pen.''And do you know his name??'' she asked. ''I do. It's Grimmjow Jeagerjacques, J-E-A-G-E-R-J-A-C-Q-U-E-S.'' he answered.She wrote it down. ''Okay.And you know his date of birth??''she asked. ''I'm sorry. I do not.'' Said Ulquiorra and scowled.I don't even know when your birthday is. I'm so sorry Grimmjow.''And his address or his family contact??'' ''Sorry, I do not. But our teacher does. I'm sure he'll arrive here sooner or later.'' He said. Nurse thanked him and left.Ulquiorra realized how little things he actually knew about Grimmjow.His head was now spinning a bit, he didn't know why, he didn't care. He sat down and put propped his elbows against his knees,hiding his face in palms. How terrible boyfriend I have been…even though just for one day.

''Ulquiorra.'' He turned to that voice and saw Urahara, Ishida,Szayell coming in ,followed by Nnoitra and Ichigo.''How's he??'' asked Urahara. Ulquiorra shook his head,unable to speak.No one said anything.Finally, Ulquiorra spoke.''The others??'' he asked.''Byakuya had and opened injury on his head,so they're sewing it. Yumichika hit his head hard so he has to lay down. Renji broke his leg and Ikkaku cut his hand badly. But they're be alright.'' Said Ishida. Ulquiorra looked at him. He had his hand in bandage and several little cuts on his hands and face,but everything was clean. He probably got first aid in ambulance. Szayell had just a few cuts,Nnoitra seemed to be okay and Ichigo had black eye.Of course,everyone was kinda mass of bruises,even Urahara. "And what about you?" Nnoitra asked him."I'm alright", Ulquiorra said simply and thought about it. Everyone was alright. Except...

''It's probably because of your seats,that Grimmjow took the worse. The truck hit exactly the middle of the bus.But since you seem to be okay, Grimmjow probably shielded you.'' Said Szayell. Nobody else didn't say anything. Sometimes someone tried, but no one listened. After some time Byakuya joined them,with plaster above his right eyebrow.''Ikkaku's injuries are still getting sewed and Renji is getting a bandage.Yumichika said he'll come later.'' He informed Urahara,who nodded. Then Byakuya sat down too.Later,Ikkaku came,and after that even Renji with crutches.Yumichika came too,brought there by nurse , and in a wheelchair.After time,that seemed like century,the door opened and doctor came.

Ulquiorra,and everyone else who could immediately stood up and looked at doctor askingly,hopingly.But the doctor shook his head and turned to Urahara.''Sir,were you his teacher??'' when Urahara noded,doctor added ''We need to talk.'' And they went few meters away from the group.Everyone looked at each other,not knowing what's going on.Ulquiorra just stared at the door.

Were you his teacher??Why did you…

''How is he??'' asked Nnoitra ,looking at Urahara.''Why don't you tell us anything?? Why??!He's our friend!! We want to know!!'' he yelled at teacher. Urahara turned at him.''Jiruga-san,please,calm down. Yelling won't solve anything.'' He said firmly.

I don't get it.

Nnoitra scowled angrily.''Then what about Grimmjow?!? Can we see him now?? Heh??!!'' he asked loudly. Urahara looked at the doctor and sighed. ''Urahara-san..'' whispered Ishida when he noticed the look his teacher had. ''We can't see Grimmjow,can  we,Urahara-san??'' asked Uryu.Teacher shook his head.''I'm sorry,boys. Grimmjow…he..'' he paused for a moment.        
                                          
Why did you use past tense??!

Urahara took a deep breath as he looked at his students.''He died ten minutes ago.''

Those words hit Ulquiorra like a bullet.If he would have listened,he could have heard everyone saying something,even crying,but he didn't .He just stood there.Grimmjow…no,no,no,this can't be. Can't be.. Ulquiorra wanted to cry,but he couldn't.He didn't feel sad, or alone. He felt empty. So terribly empty that it hurt.  He couldn't move, nor he could think. But if he could, he would probably have thought something like if he could even exist.''Ulquiorra…'' said quiet voice. He looked at that person,not caring who is it. That person looked into empty green orbs.'' It's alright to cry.'' Said that person. Ulquiorra blinked.''Byakuya…'' he whispered. I remember now. His girlfriend died…we heard..everyone,me and… It broke inside… Grimmjow.

Ulquiorra's green eyes let out the tears. His leg's weren't listening. He would fall if he hadn't grabbed Byakuya's shirt. He propped his head against Byakuya's chest and cried. He cried for all the things he did with Grimmjow,for the things he didn't. He cried for every moment they spent together, and for every word Grimmjow said,for his every smile.Byakuya watched him.'' I know what he was for you. We all know. That's why it's alright to cry.'' He said quietly. Ulquiorra just held onto his shirt tighter and let out all those tears full of grief and sorrow. That hurt,too. Grimmjow was gone. For ever. He disappeared from this world and left just a few traces
Memories that were painful to remember.
Feeling that hurt to feel.
Empty space that couldn't be filled.He opened eyes just to see his tears falling on the floor.''Grimmjow…'' he sobbed.. He could hear a voice in his head saying something,but he couldn't understand.''Ulquiorra..I'm so sorry…'' said Ichigo quietly,putting hand on his shoulder.Green eyes looked at him.

''Sorry,you say?''he asked whispering,tears running down his cheeks.He let go of Byakuya's shirt and looked away.''Your sorry isn't going to bring him back,is it??'' he said. Nothing is going to bring him back.Nothing..''I know,I just-'' tried Ichigo,but Ulquiorra stopped him.''Then why do you say that? There's nothing your useless sorry will do for him!'' he shouted desperately.''Grimmjow…''…his head was spinning again as he kneeled on the floor,holding his head.I can't do anything. Nothing I do, nothing anyone does is going to bring him back.He's …''..gone.'' he whispered. ''Why him? Why now?Why is he gone??'' he cried out. Nobody answered his question. Voice in his head said something again,but Ulquiorra didn't care about any trashy voice in his head.Maybe it's true you don't realize what you had until you lost it.

To imagine I cared about what will people say.It seemed ridiculous now.He smirked.It really was ridiculous.Sadly. Tears came into his eyes again. Image of world without Grimmjow was something unbearable. Image of cold,dark,lonely place was hurting him inside.That image of you…I need it…He stood up,wiping tears out of his eyes before he looked up.''I want to see him.'' He said. At least for the last time.

Ishida looked at him.''Honestly,Ulquiorra, I don't think it's a good idea,although I understand that you want to see him. But…'' He was stopped by Urahara who just came back.''You want to see him,Ulquiorra-san??'' Pale teen nodded.''I-I know he..he's not here anymore,even so..I want to give him goodbye.'' He said,trying to sound strong, but he probably failed.''There won't be other chance.'' He whispered.''Those are words of a man.'' Said Urahara.''Let's go.'' He added. Ulquiorra swalloved as he looked at the door.Behind that…He felt drops of cold sweat on his forehead.The voice in his head was growing stronger,but still he wasn't able and willing to understood it. He tried to not think about all the blood and damage Grimmjow's body…no,Grimmjow had on him. The doctor came and was speaking to them, though nobody, especially not Ulquiorra listened.

He suddenly noticed the pain on the side of his head and subconsciously raised right hand to touch the spot,his eyes still locked on the door. But he couldn't see it clearly, his head spinning even more than before. He looked at his right hand and there was blood on his fingers. Suddenly Ulquiorra remembered. I hit my head back then in the bus. His view got blurry. He closed his eyes for a moment, trying to clear his mind. I want to see him... I have to.. Doctor finished his speech and put a hand on the doorknob ,ready to open them. Urahara-sensei looked at him."Hey, Ulquiorra, Ulquiorra!" he called out, but it wasn't his voice at all. No, it definitely wasn't his voice. No, it's impossible... this voice.. it can't be...
''Ulquiorra!''